All posts tagged: Prayer

Life: No New Friends

I closed my Bible, switched off the light and cried. The fact that Nehemiah’s donkey couldn’t make it up the rubble of the ruined city walls wasn’t what moved me to tears (albeit Biblical), what caused me to cry was indeed the title of a Drake song I’ve never actually heard (my cousin Tumi would be disappointed). It dawned on me that three months after moving to Dubai, I hadn’t made as much social-life progress as I would have liked. You see this move is the most different from the other times I’ve lived abroad, because there had been a time limit and each came with additional people to ‘share’ my experiences with – that’s what we had in common that’s what brought us together so quickly to form the friendships we had. But this time around, I came alone. I found myself wailing crying because in this whole ‘thing’ I miss my family the most. I miss the noise and laughter that comes with having two younger brothers with whom I watch reruns of My …

Writing: I’ll Be Honest…

Over the past few days I’ve been reading Proverbs 10 and verse 11 really stood out to me and it pretty much says “The words of the godly lead to life…” If you’ve been following my blog you’d notice some inconsistency with how often I post and it has been stressing me. I have big plans for my blog and sincere prayers of what I want my blog to be. I started this blog with very little structure or idea of what it can become, next year, I would have had my blog for five years, and it’s only now that I’ve gotten my focus. It is the verse above. The verse really encouraged me, as opposed to convicting me, it brought reassurance that my words are worthwhile. They are worth writing, they are worth reading and they are worth being heard. So today, I really dedicate my blog back to God. I’ve done a lot of this blog out of my own strength and it hasn’t been bad, but it hasn’t been fun per se. …

Life: Overwhelmed by 2016

“Day three of the New Year and I am incredibly overwhelmed” ~ this is how I started my prayer to God. I was overwhelmed by the hype of entering into a new year and the pressure of making moves in 2016. Seeing everyone’s life goals, mood board, planners and hearing people shout “This is my Year of [insert goal here]”*, pretty much put my mind in overdrive and I began to panic and concluded that I hadn’t achieved much in my 20+ years of living unlike my social media** peers. I was overwhelmed and anxious because I had not 100% trusted God with my life. I knew I had to pray – both my heart and mind were racing and formulating thoughts at speeds I could not keep up with – so I headed to the shopping centre where I went to grab the coffee I was craving for, buy some socks I desperately needed, window shop like a baller and most importantly pray because it was necessary. After leaving the shopping centre I felt reassured. …

Life: Don’t Pity Me Because I’m Single

I’ve been meaning to write something on this topic for a very long time, but every time I started to write this post it never seemed authentic. Writing about it felt forced but then this happened… Half-term at my house and some how my relationship status was the topic for discussion… and my 12 year old cousin procedes to ask “Sister Layide*, do you have a secret boyfriend?” With a half-perplexed-half-annoyed look on my face, and with my eyes darting at her through my lenses, I shot back and said: “NO! Why would I have a secret boyfriend? If he was a secret I wouldn’t tell you and if I was with someone I wouldn’t keep it to myself! I would tell you! I would tell everyone!” I thought my answer would suffice and encourage her to ponder no more about my lack of a secret boyfriend, well it did, not before she used her right index finger to tap her watchless left wrist to indicate to me that my time was running out. SHE IS 12! (I …